Saturday, March 16, 2013

Getting back on the track

It was 4 am.  I tweeted, "Sleeping at Brahma Muhurat because waking up at Brahma Muhurat is too mainstream".  Okay, I don't remember if I actually posted it or I had just thought it and found it funny because Brahma Muhurat, which is considered the best and most auspicious time of the day is roughly around 4:30 am.

I thought it was so funny that I am up till so late, talking to friends in other timezones, reading tweets, blogs and cursing my life.  And then sleeping and waking up at 9 because seriously, who cares about sunrise?

It was at that moment when I hit my lowest.  My career was not going anywhere (still got to clear those 4 damned papers) and I was going to be a year older in a few days and I was left with hardly any friends in the city and all my crushes were one sided.

And then I cried myself to sleep.

I decided to start evening walks.  Go out and have some fresh air and sunlight.  The idea was to tire myself physically so that I fall asleep at a decent time of 1 am instead of Brahma Muhurat.  I started with 30 minute walks and I was so physically out of shape and lacked stamina.  I could barely walk 2 kms in that half an hour.  Because I was trying to walk too fast.  Baby steps.

I then decided to work on the distance and gradually increase the speed.  30 minutes became 40 and then 50.  With distance, even speed increased.  I started getting tired, but would still be up till 2 am, because, internet.

I downloaded the app, endomondo and started tracking my distance and time.  Now, the GPS is so ridiculous, it tracks different distances on different days for the same route.  So I don't take the distance seriously, but it helps me stay 'accountable' and the increasing total distance covered gives me immense pleasure.

There was still something missing.

15 days back I decided I don't want to walk in the evenings because it is too hot, and I would keep waiting the entire day so that it's evening and I can go for a walk.  I was so much enjoying my walks.  I spent entire day obsessing over evenings.  It was then that I decided I'll go for walks in the morning.

I kept an alarm for 6 am and slept at 1 am.  Struggled to sleep.  Because I was so anxious of waking up early, I could not sleep.  Previously when I've tried this keeping alarm at 6 am routine, I would end up waking at 5:55 am and turn off the alarm and go back to sleep and wake up at 9.  That day when I woke up at 5:45 am, I got up from the bed.  If I would have gone back to sleep, I would have been ashamed of myself.

I was up at 6, and went for a walk at 7. (Yes, I like to take my time to be mentally alert - I'm usually online from 6 am to 7 am, come say Hi to me, ok?) I came back after an hour and I felt great.

Sunrise is a wonderful thing.  So is the fresher air.  The nicotine smell at the chai tapri on the other side of walking track was replaced by agarbatti smell.  Birds were happier and chirpier.  And so am I.  I am annoying chirpy and happy in the mornings.  I was the only one to laugh loudly when a crazy dog came running in the walking track and started chasing bees.  (okay, my laughing did make one cute guy who was jogging smile at me, but still)

I now sleep by 10:30 because I invariably start feeling sleepy (because these days I wake up by 5:30 without alarm) Also, cutting down on the caffeine helps.  No coffee after 4 pm.  At least till the time my body gets used to the waking up early thing.  But no caffeine in a while.

And studies you ask?  Well, that part I'm still working on.  Still trying to figure out a way to keep myself interested in studies, but hey, I'm getting there.  One day at a time.

Oh, and did I tell you I no longer open Tweetdeck the moment I switch on the laptop? Is my twitter addiction over?  What will I do with my life now?

But on the positive side, all this waking up early and going for walks has made me a happier person!  Oh, and as a bonus, I think I have even lost some weight.  Maybe 100 grams or so :P but I'm less fluffier! :P Not too bad, eh?

So, it's still a long journey, but I'm getting there.  One day at a time.  Year 2013 will be the year of change.

1 comment:

Reshma :) said...

Wowwwwwwwwwww! Girl, you made MY day! :-) TRULY feeling VERY inspired reading all this :D

Let the year of change be the year of celebration (of many good changes!!) :-) Keep walking, keep sleeping in time, and keep blogging! :D

God bless you.

Mmmuahhhh :* :-)