Thursday, July 19, 2012

Questions, questions.

So you think, "shaadi kab karogi/karoge?" is the worst question you have to answer every time you meet your relatives?

Try answering, "iss baar bhi clear nahin hua?"

Or, "abhi bhi CA kar rahi hai?"

Yeah, yeah, give them benefit of doubt, on how they don't know that even if you clear everything at one go, it takes easily 5 years to clear. Or that they don't know how tough the course is.  Or they are just idiots.

The fact that I have to answer such questions with an awkward laughter makes me desperate to leave this city.  Oh, go ahead, smirk that I am trying to run away from problems.  You are not on the receiving end of accusatory glances.

As if I had gone out of my way to flunk.

Listen. I don't know what goes wrong.  When the exams got over this time in May, I told my Dad if I pass in Direct Taxes paper, I'll pass.  I was so desperately praying that I get 40/100 in Direct Taxes because I was very hopeful for rest of papers.  I got 53 in Direct Taxes.  I didn't clear any of the remaining 3 papers.  Last time, I had cleared all, missed out on aggregate.

Institute of Chartered Accountants of India thinks it's God.  Working in mysterious ways. But no, it sucks. (heh, pls don't debar me. I'm just angry and venting, ok?)

And of course, everyone has a suggestion on how I can clear it next time.  The best is joining a coaching class.  Now I have nothing against coaching classes.  But all these years, I have not taken a single tuition.  I have cleared all my CA exams till now without attending coaching classes.  How come my achievements till today are overlooked over the fact I didn't clear exam this time? It's not that I got marks in single digits.

There is nothing new the coaching classes can teach me.  "But you'll get a discipline", they say.  According to them, attending crash batch, where I sit for 10 hours in one room, where my mind gets distracted because I already know what the tutor is teaching will be less fruitful than me practicing on my own.  And honestly, if I don't decide to bring discipline to my life, no coaching class will be able to do that. I'm kinda stubborn that way. Not something I'm proud of.

Anyway.

I'm annoyed.  I'm angry.  And I've been crying all day today.  So much that my eyes are burning now and I should probably sleep.  But yes, I could do with a kind word or two! :'(

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am 29, a happy spinster and i get a lot of those questions.. Once when i was really fed up with the irritating question i gave rude/oversmart replies and since don't get too many questions.. Not advocating but just saying.. Anways read this blog sometime ago, hope you like it.. http://bit.ly/Q9Negj and it cheers you up..

Nirwa Mehta said...

:P You left a link to my own blog in the comments? :P

Thank you, whoever you are! :-) You made me smile! :-)

Anonymous said...

Oh is it.. That was your blog? :P

Nirwa Mehta said...

You kidding me, right? :P

Anonymous said...

Absolutely not.. :P :P

Nirwa Mehta said...

Yeah, right. :P

You someone I know?

Anonymous said...

Nope.. I just follow you on twitter..

Nirwa Mehta said...

:-) Yay!

Nehal Lakhani said...

huhh .. Gng through all dis every day #samestory